Stressful Times, still in Love

It's Monday again, and you'd think that I'd feel good after a relaxing weekend... think again...
We were so busy that we both got a little upset with each other.... ya da ya da.... I REALLY wish that we could have one stress free weekend together... no work, no homework, no class, no worries.... Hopefully it's coming up... the 24th 25th and 26th.... just keep waiting for that weekend.
In the mean-time, I'll remember how much he means to me, and not let a little problem hurt our relationship... He's my everything! I always forgive him, because he's always working to improve himself...
This semester is a pain, once it's over, things should go better.... Hopefully. Tuesday's lookin scary... chemistry test!!! Ugh, please god give him the mind-set to do well.... me too please!!! I just want to have us both pass, even a C would be heaven! Have a test Wednesday in music, and a test saturday in Tae-Kwon-Do! Why do we always have to take tests to prove our knowledge.... Sometimes, it's just a bad way to prove yourself... GRRRR..., well, what can you do but pray! Maybe study, but that never gets me anywhere, and he doesn't have the time....
Next Semester!
Lookin forward to the end of my favorite month

The Best Things in Life

The best things in life come from your pack. Because of the hard days we all go through (no matter what you do) we often think that we are not getting the best out of life. We think we're to busy. Sometimes we are. Whether we have the time or not, we all need to stop and enjoy the best things in life. Life doesn't seem so bad once we stop and think about what makes us happy. It's usually something very simple.
My favorite thing to do is to cuddle with my honey-bear. Just sitting there in his arms is enough to make the rest of the day livable. We cuddle every morning and every night. He cuddles me when I'm not feeling very good, or when I'm sad. Nothing makes me happier and I can't wait till bedtime every day because sleep only comes after some cuddles. Some days we get in some extra cuddling when there's time to watch TV, or when there's a little time before we have to go to Hale.

The smell of rain always brings a smile to me face. It feels like all the bad has been washed away for just a few moments and the fresh clean smell of the rain fills the world, making optimism possible.

When I come home from wherever I've been I am always greeted by a jumping mass of fur. It feels great to be loved so much, even if it's slightly painful being pushed to the ground by a very excited Gabby.

I get the same thrill whenever my husband walks through the door.

Included in my list of happy things is reading, listening to thunder, watching the birds play outside, and bubble baths.

Cool October mornings are the best time to take a walk and reflect on what makes you happy.
All of these things are easy to take for granted, they're normal, everyday things, so simple, but so beautiful. I'm thankful for every one.

Quote of the Day: "Anyone who has ever heard it when the land was covered with a blanket of snow and elusively lighted by shimmering moonlight, will never forget the strange, trembling wolf cry." ~ Unknown

Happiness Starts With A Smile

Lately everyone has been a little depressed. And really, who could blame them? The economy is buckling, there are daily stories of murders and robberies, and summer seems to be finally ending.
But, I've also noticed that everyone is just trying to make the most of things. Trying to change their perspective so that they can be happy.
Great idea!!! It's time for everyone to smile. A wonderful goal for the world would be to have everyone smiling all in one moment. Sounds hard, but maybe one day our world leaders will get together and plan it out.... :D... see it's not that hard... kinda like Christmas...
For now, I've got a plan. Whenever we see a frown (from a stranger or a close friend) we should do our best to make eye contact and give them the brightest smile we can muster... There's nothing wrong with that. Sometimes all that it takes to turn my day around is a smile from a complete stranger. And smiles are contagious. Smile at someone walking down the hall, and soon the whole hallway will be showing their pearly whites...
Sometimes you might get a strange look. hat's okay. That person just isn't getting enough smiles lately.
Also, try not to end your day on a bad note. If you've been fighting with your hubby, or friend, or ferret, make sure you say you love them before you nod off. The situation doesn't have to be resolved (sometimes it's better just to go to sleep, stupid things can be said when you're tired) just tell them that you love them so they don't spend the whole night wondering.
Love mankind, look out for the welfare of everyone and not just yourself. That's the reason our economy is in the hole!
Consider the other person's perspective.... If a person is depressed saying stuff like "Why are you never happy!" Will not HELP!! Just be as supportive as you can. I know it gets tough. But if that person needs you try your best to just be there for them. Really that's what they need at the moment until they can find a way to sort out their problems...
Love everyone as if they belong to your extended pack! Remember that you shouldn't betray your pack if it just benefits you. Packs don't fight over leaders if there is plenty of food to go around.
Quote of the Day: "The wolf is neither man's competitor nor his enemy. He is a fellow creature with whom the earth must be shared."
~ L. David Mech

Howling For My Pack Mate

It's sad, but true. I miss Jay everyday when he goes to work. I constantly think of him and only him. It's insane that I miss him so much, I know that. I see him every day! I know better, but I just feel so lonely when he's not here.
He's really the only one (okay Brandy nearly beats him here) who knows me, and knows my thoughts. Not wanting to offend, I don't usually say everything that's on my mind to anyone else (Except maybe Brandy, when she's around)
Jay's depressed too. Not about being married to me, thankfully, :), no.. He's tired of being where he is. We're very busy, and it's hard. Getting back to school is hard for him, especially because of chemistry. I think, like me, he just wants to get a career started, something he'd enjoy. Instead of being stuck in an office wasting away all day long. As he thinks of it. I'm very proud of Jay for working for us. He's my hero.
So... every day as he drives away a small tear that I couldn't hold back seeps out. It's not fair! I'm a stronger woman than this. But this guy has me pegged! Which I suppose is a good thing. The problem is dealing with being lonely for the majority of the day!
For now we have lunches together, which is bad thing because it's a waste of gas... NOT A WASTE to me. I love every moment I'm with him.
But next semester I head off to Weber State, just for the days. It scares me.... I want to enjoy school, but the incredible loneliness swallows me up. I'm afraid of the strangers I will meet every day on the bus. Everyone has their own story, most never will hurt anyone, most.
I've always been afraid of meeting new people. I don't know why, but I hate it. Sadly, it's a reason I'm so dependent on the people I know. Something I need to change. Lunches with Jay will soon end. Cheaper, but depressing.
Maybe I need help. I know I need to get out of my shell, but I'd prefer not too. I hate changes...
Guess it's something I'll have to get over, missing my Jay. Eventually I'll be able to get through a day without missing Jay, hopefully not....
I love Jay
Quote of the Day:“For the strength of the Pack is the Wolf, and the strength of the Wolf is the Pack."
~ Rudyard Kipling

Life with Ferrets

Sometimes people (especially my family) make really random choices. One of those choices was deciding to get a ferret. Sox.....It may have seemed like an odd decision, but I believe that Sox was the best investment we ever made. Having a ferret totally changes what you think is funny. This is a picture of him in his New Halloween Costume. Yawning... ferrets are always yawning. They sleep at least 18 out of the 24 hours in a day.




Because of out good friend Sox, we have "invested" in 4 more ferrets. Each one of them has his/her own personality. And each of them makes my heart glow with each new funny hour of the day when we play.
Smallest to largest we have Moose, Patch, Sox, Charlie, and Doozer. Doozer and Charlie are the youngest, but they're the fattest!!!! If you go anywhere near the cage (you have to sneak up on them though, or they'll all come and look pathetic) Charlie is eating, Doozer is sleeping on the litter covered floor, Sox and Patch are huddled together on the carpeted floor and Moose is usually curled underneath one of those two.
The ferrets play very well with the other pets, it's always interesting to see the maybe 4 inch tall Sox tackling the 3 foot Gabby. Very hardy creatures, but the dogs make sure to be as gentle as they possibly can, but I don't think I'd let then play without supervision.
The ferrets are awesome with people. Our ferrets do not bite, they're absolute cuddle-bums. Sometimes they thow Hissy fits over a treat they shouldn't have (Chocolate, Licrorice) and make some pretty scary noises when we try to take them away. But they've never hurt anybody.
Inshort, ferrets are great pets and I just HAD to brag about my fuzzy-family. (More to come on the other pets.) I feel like all of my pets are part of my family. (My pack)
Now... just a little on the people who abuse their pets, or the people who believe that God does not love his animals as much as he loves us. Or the scientists who claim that our animals do not have feelings. You are all idiots... Seriously. They do have a personality, and the people who say they don't have souls, or that they don't have feelings, just make me so angry. How can you say they don't feel. I get home and Gabby practically knocks me over because she's so happy to see me. She also knows fear and I think she feels safer with me and Jay than she ever has before... I know Gabby feels. Neco was ashamed of herself every time she had an accident or tore up something that was just to irresistable. She would try to hide under the bed because she knew she'd get in trouble. (And that's impressive because she was a great dane)
Anyway, take care of your pets people, they're part of your family!
Quote of the Day:"Now the hungry lion roars,
And the wolf behowls the moon."
~ Shakespeare

Falling down the Stairs

Well, I knew it would happen soon. I fell down the stinkin stairs! I think I messed up my back too. But I have to much pride to tell Grandma, so SHHHH! Golly I'm a clumsy oaf sometimes. :D Oh well, guess it happens to everyone. Kinda hurts to walk, but at least I can ay?

So, I bought a new book online Wolves at Our Door. It's an awesome book. If anyone is interested in reading it (ha ha) let me know. It's a really short book and there are some pretty awe-inspirng pictures. My favorite wolf in there is Lakota. I always like the Omega wolves. Motaki is another cool wolf.

THIRD DAY OF OCTOBER!!!!!!! yay. Still Fall Break but it isn't very fun because I'm kinda sittin here alone. Jayde is here and so is Carrie, so that's cool. Tomorrow ought to be better because we don't have Tae-Kwon-Do and me and Jay can hang out before work! Hee!!!!
Did I mention I like Zelda!!!! I LOVE ZELDA!!! Video games keep me relaxed if I'm stressed out. And I'm always stressed out for some strange reason. This has been a really random post, sorry about that!
Wow, that debate last night, that was really interesting. Though I'm still for Obama, my repect for Palin rose a bit. Still think she's an idiot, and that she doesn't have enough experience to run the country in case McCain dies, but she's not as big of an idiot. By the way, she supports the aerial hunting of wolves. (evil and inhumane) SO she has no chance for my vote.
Quote of the Day: "There are, of course, several things in Ontario that are more dangerous than wolves. For instance, the step-ladder."
~ J.W. Curran

Society is failing in a way that wolves can't understand

Today on the morning news there was a story about an old woman who had received a knock on the door. It were three men who said they would pull her weeds for money. She agreed. A little later they knocked on her door again, stabbed her, and pistol whipped her. They stole her big-screen tv and other valuables.
My car radio faceplate was stolen about a month ago. Not much you can do with that except sell it. Jerk. Thanks for making my faith in people drop from trusting and hopeful to not even close to optimistic.
I just wanna say, how! How! HOW!!
How can anyone do such an inhumane thing to another human being! How can anyone do such a thing to anything! It's horrible. The news is just getting worse and worse too. We hear of kinds of robberies, rapes, murders, and assault on the news! Has life gotten so bad that it's now man eat man? It's horrible. One of the most depressing times of my day is when I hear of things like that. I think that people who could do such a thing really need to look at what exactly they are doing. Would a man want HIS daughter raped, or murdered, or both. I think we need to look at the value of other people's lives! C'mon people, HOW!!!!!!!??????????
You can't say society has gone to the dogs, because not even dogs act like this. I swear, some of these people think it's fun to do this, or make a living out of it! Wolves only kill what they need to survive. They may profit at others' expense, but that's the way they survive. Humans can get a job. Sorry. If you're gunna steal, steal food! That's the only thing that I can even partially forgive for. There's should be no other reason for stealing other than surviving. And really, that shouldn't be allowed either.

Quote of the Day: "To look into the eyes of a wolf is to see your own soul - hope you like what you see."
~ Aldo Leopold

Ok ok. Now for a happy moment after all of you are depressed to the point of never reading this blog again!!!! It's October! Best month of the year. I'm so excited for Halloween!!! Jay and I want to be Peter Pan and Captain Hook!!!!
There's the vice-presidential debate tonight!! That ought to be as funny as watching a dog chase it's tail. We'll be doing chemistry homework while watching. (Sorry, another depressing note) :D
I really do LOVE life!!! I love Jay, I love my family, I love the rain, the sun, the crisp mornings of Utah! I love MOUNTAINS!!! Look at them in the morning folks, they're a pretty sight during sun-rise!